Jun 17

“The Noonday Demon”: Andrew Solomon Examines Depression

Listen to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason. Andrew Solomon, The Noonday Demon

Recently I posted about Andrew Solomon‘s new TED talk “Forge Meaning, Build Identity.” Also pertinent to Minding Therapy is his 2001 The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression, a book that’s both personal and sociocultural in scope.

Last year he gave the following TED talk, “Depression, The Secret We Share”:

If you’ve neither watched the above talk nor read The Noonday Demon, you may be interested in some of these quotes from The Noonday Demon:

The Opening Lines

“Depression is the flaw in love. To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who can despair at what we lose, and depression is the mechanism of that despair.”

The Nature of Depression

“Antonin Artaud wrote on one of his drawings, ‘Never real and always true,’ and that is how depression feels. You know that it is not real, that you are someone else, and yet you know that it is absolutely true.”

“Grief is depression in proportion to circumstance; depression is grief out of proportion to circumstance.”

“The most important thing to remember about depression is this: you do not get the time back. It is not tacked on at the end of your life to make up for the disaster years. Whatever time is eaten by a depression is gone forever. The minutes that are ticking by as you experience the illness are minutes you will not know again.”

What Helps Depression  

“The people who succeed despite depression do three things. First, they seek an understanding of what’s happening. They they accept that this is a permanent situation. And then they have to transcend their experience and grow from it and put themselves out into the world of real people.”

“A sense of humor is the best indicator that you will recover; it is often the best indicator that people will love you. Sustain that and you have hope.”

“It is important not to suppress your feelings altogether when you are depressed. It is equally important to avoid terrible arguments or expressions of outrage. You should steer clear of emotionally damaging behavior. People forgive, but it is best not to stir things up to the point at which forgiveness is required. When you are depressed, you need the love of other people, and yet depression fosters actions that destroy that love. Depressed people often stick pins into their own life rafts. The conscious mind can intervene. One is not helpless.”

Being on Medication

“Since I am writing a book about depression, I am often asked in social situations to describe my own experiences, and I usually end by saying that I am on medication.
“Still?” people ask. “But you seem fine!” To which I invariably reply that I seem fine because I am fine, and that I am fine in part because of medication.
“So how long do you expect to go on taking this stuff?” people ask. When I say that I will be on medication indefinitely, people who have dealt calmly and sympathetically with the news of suicide attempts, catatonia, missed years of work, significant loss of body weight, and so on stare at me with alarm.
“But it’s really bad to be on medicine that way,” they say. “Surely now you are strong enough to be able to phase out some of these drugs!” If you say to them that this is like phasing the carburetor out of your car or the buttresses out of Notre Dame, they laugh.
“So maybe you’ll stay on a really low maintenance dose?” They ask. You explain that the level of medication you take was chosen because it normalizes the systems that can go haywire, and that a low dose of medication would be like removing half of your carburetor. You add that you have experienced almost no side effects from the medication you are taking, and that there is no evidence of negative effects of long-term medication. You say that you really don’t want to get sick again. But wellness is still, in this area, associated not with achieving control of your problem, but with discontinuation of medication.
“Well, I sure hope you get off it sometime soon,” they say.

Life with Recurrent Depression

“The opposite of depression is not happiness, but vitality and my life, as I write this, is vital even when sad. I may wake up sometime next year without my mind again; it is not likely to stick around all the time. Meanwhile, however, I have discovered what I would have to call a soul, a part of myself I could never have imagined until one day, seven years ago, when hell came to pay me a surprise visit. It’s a precious discovery. Almost every day I feel momentary flashes of hopelessness and wonder every time whether I am slipping. For a petrifying instant here and there, a lightning-quick flash, I want a car to run me over…I hate these feelings but, but I know that they have driven me to look deeper at life, to find and cling to reasons for living, I cannot find it in me to regret entirely the course my life has taken. Every day, I choose, sometimes gamely, and sometimes against the moment’s reason, to be alive. Is that not a rare joy?”

Apr 12

Andrew Weil: Another View On Depression and Pills

Andrew Weil, MD, is the founder and program director of the Arizona Center for Integrative Medicine and the author of many bestselling books on health topics. His most recent, Spontaneous Happiness (2011), reflects more than just professional experience with the issue of depression—he’s been there.

From Publisher’s Weekly: “Weil’s program aims for ‘positive emotionality’—a far better destination than the roller-coaster ride between bliss and despair. This is more than a New Age prescription for contentment. Weil’s revelations and insights from his own lifelong battle with depression lift this guide from a hip and clinical ‘how to’ to a generous and heartfelt ‘here’s how.'”

Andrew Weil notes that many people take medications that are in fact worthless and possibly harmful. Among the problems with these meds is the existence of a condition known as tardive dysphoria, meaning “lingering bad mood,” that can occur over time on antidepressants.

As possible treatments for depression, Weil prefers more consideration to lifestyle changes and less to ineffective drugs. Two things that he says have been proven to work well, for example, are walking regularly and having sufficient omega 3 fatty acids in one’s diet. Also, social support: “If you want to be in optimum emotional health, realize that social isolation stands between you and it. Reach out to others. Join groups—to drum, meditate, sing, sew, read, whatever. Find communities—to garden, do service work, travel, whatever. We humans are social animals. Spontaneous happiness is incompatible with social isolation. Period.”

Weil admits, however, that he has tried only one antidepressant himself and that he stopped using it after only a few days—he didn’t like the way it made him feel. Many other users have tried various medications before finding one that works well for them, just as many have decided to wait out initial periods of discomfort, as these often pass.

Although the views of Weil are important contributions to this area of study, I want to emphasize that he is not saying antidepressant medications don’t in fact help some folks, particularly those with more serious depressive disorders.