Jun 13

OCD Memoirs: Three Recent Contributions

Obsessive-compulsive disorder is usually familiarly known as OCD in today’s parlance, but until recently OCD memoirs have been scarce. Below are three worth considering:

I. Lily Bailey, Because We Are Bad (2018)

Bailey is a British model. From the publisher’s blurb: “By the age of thirteen, Lily Bailey was convinced she was bad. She had killed someone with a thought, spread untold disease, and ogled the bodies of other children. Only by performing an exhausting series of secret routines could she make up for what she’d done. But no matter how intricate or repetitive, no act of penance was ever enough.”

Excerpt from Kirkus Reviews: “As a child, the author privately referred to herself as ‘we.’ However, the girl that ‘shared’ Bailey’s mind was no imaginary friend: she was the ‘other’ who drove her to check on her sleeping sister several times a night, wash her hands to rawness, and mentally repeat elaborate ‘prayer[s].’ She existed to ensure that Bailey carried out rituals as ‘protection against everything going wrong’ and make up for all her real and imagined mistakes…”

After significant struggles, therapy eventually helped her manage her condition.

II. Shala Nicely, Is Fred in the Refrigerator? (2018)

As a child Nicely had “nightly rituals” to deal with horrifying thoughts. “…(S)he knew to obey her mind’s Rule #1: keep its secret, or risk losing everything and everyone she loved.”

More from the publisher: “It would be almost two decades before she learned the name of the menacing monster holding her hostage…It would take years longer to piece together the keys to recovery that would change her life forever, beginning with the day she broke her monster’s silence.”

And now Nicely is a therapist specializing in treatment of this disorder. In addition to writing this memoir, she’s also the co-author of Everyday Mindfulness for OCD: Tips, Tricks, and Skills for Living Joyfully (2017).

III. David Adam, The Man Who Couldn’t Stop (2015)

From the publisher’s blurb: “David Adam…has suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder for twenty years, and The Man Who Couldn’t Stop is his unflinchingly honest attempt to understand the condition and his experiences. In this riveting and intimate blend of science, history, and memoir, Adam explores the weird thoughts that exist within every mind and explains how they drive millions of us toward obsession and compulsion.”

Apr 03

“The Last Word”: A Shallow View of OCPD

The Last Word, starring Shirley MacLaine and Amanda Seyfried, is an enjoyable enough new feature film, though one that will probably be seen by a lot more viewers once it’s available on demand or to rent.

MacLaine’s character Harriet, in her early 80’s, is made out to be the ultimate lifelong control freak—and one peek at the trailer and you can see how amusingly unlikeable she’s been. But it’s a movie after all, and very possibly there will be a bit of redemption before it’s too late:

Themes of loss affect all three of the main female characters in The Last Word—besides Harriet, there’s her obituary-writer-for-hire Ann (Seyfried) and Harriet’s new child protégé Brenda (AnnJewel Lee Dixon). The losses, however, aren’t explored in any depth.

Nor is the psychiatric diagnosis (SPOILER ALERT) that Harriet’s uptight and estranged daughter Elizabeth (Anne Heche), a bright medical professional, informs her they share: Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, or OCPD.

Some of the traits of OCPD, as offered by IOCDF (International OCD Foundation) follow. Not all these need be present in order for a diagnosis to be made:

  • Rigid adherence to rules and regulations
  • An overwhelming need for order
  • Unwillingness to yield or give responsibilities to others
  • A sense of righteousness about the way things “should be done”
  • Excessive devotion to work that impairs social and family activities
  • Excessive fixation with lists, rules and minor details
  • Perfectionism that interferes with finishing tasks
  • Rigid following of moral and ethical codes
  • Unwillingness to assign tasks unless others perform exactly as asked
  • Lack of generosity; extreme frugality without reason
  • Hoarding behaviors

OCPD, by the way, is not the same as OCD, obsessive-compulsive disorder. As Jenny Turner, The Guardian, stated as “the single most useful fact” she gleaned from David Adam‘s book about OCD, The Man Who Couldn’t Stop (2014):

OCD is completely different from OCPD, obsessive-compulsive personality disorder, which is simply to be a person with an unusually low tolerance for mess and imperfection – joke-anal people, like Monica from Friends. The need for order and ritual in the lives of OCPD people is ‘ego-syntonic’, odd and possibly anti-social, but simply part of who they are. In OCD people, on the other hand, the thoughts are ‘harrowing, ego-dystonic’, in endless, exhausting conflict with the person’s other drives and hopes. It’s like having a phobia, but worse, in that you can’t avoid it just by avoiding planes or spiders. The stimulus is internal. You generate it yourself.

In the brief scene in The Last Word in which OCPD is mentioned, we see that Harriet’s daughter Elizabeth has seemingly accepted her own condition and is trying to deal with it. From a clinical point of view not detailed in the film, it would be likely that she either inherited it via her mom’s genes, learned it via being raised by her mom, or both.

Harriet, though, couldn’t care less what Elizabeth has to say about OCPD and is most definitely not going to heed her advice to go see a therapist.

Which is highly plausible because: 1) At Harriet’s age she’s much less likely than younger folks to believe in the importance of such a diagnosis or care enough to address it, 2) Now in retirement, Harriet no longer has to deal with workplace relationships, one of the biggest issues for those with OCPD, and 3) Most people with OCPD, as part of the condition, think the way they are is okay and/or liveable.

In closing, another important point: It would be a faulty assumption to infer that because Harriet is so difficult, so is everyone else with OCPD. Many with OCPD, in actuality, exhibit their traits to a significantly lesser and/or harmful degree than Harriet.